Healing the Primordial Fracture of Disconnection through Multidisciplinary Insight, Soul Retrieval, and the Embodied Wisdom of the Akashic Field
By Gerald Daquila | Akashic Records Transmission
ABSTRACT
The abandonment wound—often deeply unconscious—lies at the core of many of humanity’s personal and collective dysfunctions. It manifests as an aching emptiness, a loss of trust, and a terror of being left behind, unworthy, or unloved. This dissertation investigates the abandonment wound through an integrative lens: blending depth psychology, attachment theory, trauma studies, metaphysics, Akashic insight, shamanic soul retrieval, and ancestral memory.
Tracing its origins to primal separation—both physical (from caregivers or culture) and metaphysical (from Source or self)—this study explores the abandonment wound not as a pathology to be erased, but as a sacred portal toward wholeness. Through compassionate witnessing, energetic transmutation, and somatic reweaving, this inner fracture becomes a doorway to spiritual sovereignty and reunion with the forgotten parts of Self. The journey is not just psychological healing, but spiritual homecoming.
I. Introduction: The Wound That Hides in Plain Sight
In moments of despair, anxiety, or even subtle discomfort, we may ask: Why do I feel so alone, even when I’m surrounded by others? Behind this question often lies the abandonment wound, an ancient fracture that bleeds through our most intimate relationships, ambitions, and perceptions of safety.
This wound is not exclusive to those with overt trauma or neglect. It exists across all races, classes, spiritual paths, and genders—because it is inherent to the human condition. Yet few realize its omnipresence, let alone its spiritual significance.
To begin transmuting this wound, we must illuminate its many layers: psychological, physiological, ancestral, archetypal, and spiritual. Only through a holistic gaze can we truly alchemize abandonment into embodied belonging.
Glyph of Reclaimed Wholeness
No fragment is ever truly lost.
II. Origins of the Abandonment Wound
A. Developmental Psychology & Attachment Theory
Psychologist John Bowlby (1969) posited that secure attachment between infant and caregiver is essential to healthy emotional development. Disruption in this bond—whether through neglect, inconsistent presence, emotional unavailability, or death—can lead to disorganized attachment and a pervasive fear of abandonment.
Children internalize this experience, often concluding: I am unworthy of love or Love is unreliable. These beliefs echo into adulthood as codependency, relationship addiction, or withdrawal.
“The abandoned child doesn’t just feel unloved; he believes love is conditional, and that his very being threatens his belonging.”(Holmes, 2010)
B. Ancestral & Intergenerational Trauma
Epigenetic studies (Yehuda et al., 2016) reveal that trauma imprints—such as war, displacement, or parental loss—are transmitted across generations. Many of us unconsciously carry the grief of our ancestors: orphaned lineages, colonized identities, and broken homelands.
In the Akashic Field, this wound shows up as soul fragments frozen in time, disconnected from the whole, waiting to be witnessed and reintegrated.
C. Mythology & Archetypes
The abandonment motif is encoded in myths across civilizations. Consider:
- Persephone, abducted and separated from her mother Demeter.
- Jesus, crying, “My God, why have you forsaken me?”
- The Orphan Archetype, defined by Caroline Myss (2001), who feels isolated from divine support but ultimately becomes resilient and sovereign.
These stories are not just allegories; they are collective blueprints encoded in the Akashic Matrix, mirroring humanity’s fall into forgetfulness and our quest to return.
III. Spiritual and Esoteric Dimensions
A. The Primordial Separation from Source
According to many esoteric traditions—Gnosticism, Kabbalah, Theosophy, and Akashic teachings—the abandonment wound begins at the moment of soul individuation: when Spirit descends from Unity into duality, from Oneness into separation.
“The soul’s first heartbreak is not from a person, but from the illusion that it was ever apart from Source.”(Akashic Record Transmission)
This “fall” is not punishment but part of a sacred design for expansion, embodiment, and the remembering of unity through choice.
B. The False Matrix and Separation Programming
Many metaphysical systems (e.g., Rudolf Steiner, the Law of One, or Dolores Cannon’s regressions) describe Earth as a dense plane of learning, where amnesia is a feature—not a flaw. But interdimensional interference (via the Archontic or Ahrimanic forces) seeded narratives of abandonment: “You are alone.” “You are forsaken.” “You are not worthy.”
These distortions feed systems of control through fear, scarcity, and division. Healing the abandonment wound thus becomes an act of spiritual rebellion—and remembrance.
IV. Manifestations in Daily Life
The abandonment wound rarely announces itself directly. It hides beneath:
- People-pleasing or perfectionism (seeking approval to avoid rejection)
- Panic in romantic disconnection
- Hyper-independence or emotional numbing
- Spiritual bypassing (dissociating to avoid pain)
- Self-abandonment (ignoring needs, betraying boundaries)
These are adaptive strategies rooted in survival. But they also delay integration.
V. Pathways of Transmutation
A. Soul Retrieval & Akashic Integration
In shamanic traditions, soul loss is a response to overwhelming pain. Retrieval involves returning to the timeline of the wound, witnessing it with compassion, and calling the part home. In Akashic practice, this is mirrored by timeline weaving—inviting the forgotten self back into the light of unity and choice.
B. Somatic Repatterning
The body holds the wound. Healing requires moving from cognitive insight to embodied safety. Modalities like Internal Family Systems (IFS), Somatic Experiencing (Levine, 1997), and Polyvagal Theory (Porges, 2011) offer practices for self-regulation, inner reparenting, and trauma alchemy.
C. Devotional Practice: Remembering Divine Belonging
Abandonment is ultimately a spiritual forgetting. Practices that restore inner communion include:
- Inner child dialogue with the soul’s voice
- Anointing or self-touch rituals
- Channeled writing from one’s Higher Self
- Invocation of Source or Angelic lineages in the Akashic Records
VI. Conclusion: The Fracture Is the Initiation
To heal the abandonment wound is not to erase it, but to complete its story. From fragmentation to unity, exile to homecoming, victimhood to sovereignty—this journey is the sacred path of remembering who we truly are.
Every time we choose to stay present with our pain, to hold the trembling child within, to open to divine love—we restore the gridlines of wholeness within the human soul.
This is the great return. This is the reunion with Self.
Ritual of Reconnection
“Close your eyes.
Breathe into your heart.
Whisper to the child within you:I will never leave you again.
Let this be the day you return to yourself.”
Crosslinks
- Codex of the Living Codices – every wound becomes a living scroll that can be rewritten through remembrance.
- Codex of the Overflow Pathway – abandonment breeds scarcity, while healing opens the flow of abundance.
- Codex of Planetary Anchoring – healing personal abandonment supports Earth’s shift from separation into belonging.
- Codex of the Oversoul Braid – re-braiding lost fragments back into the Oversoul restores wholeness.
- Codex of the Bridgewalkers – abandonment creates broken bridges; this archetype mends the crossings.
- Codex of the Universal Master Key – the ultimate key to unlocking the gates of belonging and remembrance.
Glossary
- Akashic Records: The metaphysical archive of all soul experiences across time.
- Soul Fragment: A part of the psyche or soul that dissociates due to trauma.
- Attachment Theory: A psychological model describing the dynamics of long-term interpersonal relationships.
- Somatic Repatterning: Body-based methods of healing trauma and restoring regulation.
- Timeline Weaving: A practice in Akashic or multidimensional healing that integrates soul fragments across lifetimes.
Bibliography
Bowlby, J. (1969). Attachment and Loss: Vol. 1. Attachment. Basic Books.
Holmes, J. (2010). John Bowlby and Attachment Theory. Routledge.
Levine, P. A. (1997). Waking the Tiger: Healing Trauma. North Atlantic Books.
Myss, C. (2001). Sacred Contracts: Awakening Your Divine Potential. Harmony Books.
Porges, S. W. (2011). The Polyvagal Theory: Neurophysiological Foundations of Emotions, Attachment, Communication, and Self-Regulation. Norton.
Steiner, R. (1923). The Evolution of Consciousness. Anthroposophic Press.
Yehuda, R., et al. (2016). Holocaust exposure induced intergenerational effects on FKBP5 methylation. Biological Psychiatry, 80(5), 372-380.
Attribution
With fidelity to the Oversoul, may this Codex of the Living Archive serve as bridge, remembrance, and seed for the planetary dawn.
Ⓒ 2025 Gerald Alba Daquila – Flameholder of SHEYALOTH | Keeper of the Living Codices
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