A Personal and Spiritual Journey from Success to Service
Prepared by: Gerald A. Daquila, PhD. Candidate
ABSTRACT
I’ve achieved wealth, fame, and power, yet I feel an unshakable emptiness—a void that grows when I focus on myself but fades when I help others. This thesis explores that emptiness as a signal from the Universe or Source, urging me to find meaning through service. Blending my personal story with psychology, spiritual teachings like The Law of One, and practical steps, I unpack why success didn’t deliver happiness and how helping others fills the gap. Written for anyone feeling lost despite “having it all,” this work offers a relatable path to fulfillment, balancing scholarly insight with heartfelt reflection.
Introduction
I did everything right. From childhood to adulthood, I followed society’s playbook: work hard, chase success, and happiness will follow. I earned wealth, fame, and power, but instead of joy, I found a hollow ache—an emptiness that lingers like a quiet guest. Why, after checking all the boxes, do I feel this way? And why does helping others, even in small ways, make me feel lighter, almost whole? This thesis is my attempt to understand that void and share what I’ve learned, not as an expert but as someone wrestling with the same questions you might be.
I believe this emptiness is the Universe—or what some call the Source—trying to get my attention, nudging me toward a life of purpose. Drawing on psychology, spiritual wisdom like The Law of One, and my own experience, I’ll explore what this void means, why success didn’t fix it, and how serving others became my lifeline. The journey unfolds in four parts: understanding emptiness, seeing through the myth of success, hearing the Universe’s call, and building a life of meaning. My hope is that my story resonates, offering you a map if you’re feeling lost too.
Glyph of the Threshold
In the Emptiness, the Next World Opens
1. What Emptiness Feels Like
Mental health is about more than not being “sick”—it’s how I feel, think, and connect with the world (World Health Organization, 2022). It’s the balance that lets me handle stress, love others, and find purpose. When I feel empty, that balance is off, and it shows up in ways I can’t ignore.
- Physically, it’s like a weight in my chest or a restless energy I can’t shake. Sometimes I’m just tired, even after sleeping. Research says this might be my brain’s chemistry—dopamine or serotonin—thrown off by years of chasing goals, leaving me numb to joy (Seligman, 2011). My body’s telling me it needs care, not another hustle.
- Emotionally, it’s a void, like I’m disconnected from myself and others. I go through the motions, but nothing feels real. Psychologists say this happens when we ignore our need for real connection or authentic expression (Baumeister & Leary, 1995). I’ve been so focused on winning that I forgot how to feel.
- Spiritually, it’s the worst—a sense that nothing matters. I ask, “What’s the point?” Viktor Frankl, a Holocaust survivor, said we need a “why” to live, and without it, life feels meaningless (Frankl, 1946/2006). That’s where I’m stuck.
This emptiness isn’t just a bad day; it’s a signal that something’s out of alignment. To understand why it’s there, I need to look at what I thought would make me happy.
2. Why Success Didn’t Work
I bought into the dream: work hard, get rich, get famous, and you’ll be happy. I did it—I’ve got the money, the status, the power. But the joy? It’s fleeting, like chasing a high that never lasts. Psychologists call this the hedonic treadmill: my brain gets used to the wins, so I need bigger ones to feel anything (Brickman & Campbell, 1971). It’s exhausting.
Abraham Maslow’s pyramid of needs explains it too (Maslow, 1943). Money and status cover basics like safety and security, but they don’t touch the higher stuff—growing as a person or giving back to the world. I climbed the ladder, but it was leaning against the wrong wall. Society sold me a lie, promising happiness but delivering a void. Philosopher Alain de Botton calls this “status anxiety,” where we chase what the world values, not what our souls need (de Botton, 2004).
The worst part? The emptiness gets louder when I focus on myself—my needs, my wants. It’s like the more I try to fill the void with “me,” the bigger it grows. That’s my first clue that the answer lies elsewhere.
3. A Cosmic Nudge from the Universe
What if this emptiness isn’t a curse but a gift? What if it’s the Universe—or the Source, as some call it—trying to wake me up? The Law of One, a spiritual text, says we’re all part of one infinite Creator, here to learn and grow (Ra, 1984). It describes two paths: “service-to-self” (chasing ego, power, stuff) and “service-to-others” (living for love, unity, giving). Emptiness, in this view, is a nudge to switch paths, to choose service over self.
Other traditions say similar things:
- Buddhism teaches that clinging to material things causes suffering, and peace comes from compassion (Dalai Lama, 1995).
- Christian mystics like St. John of the Cross talk about the “dark night of the soul,” a painful void that leads you closer to God through surrender (St. John of the Cross, 1577/1991).
- Existentialists like Jean-Paul Sartre argue we create meaning by acting for something bigger than ourselves (Sartre, 1943/1992).
When I focus on myself, the void screams. But when I help others—whether it’s time, kindness, or resources—I feel lighter, like I’m on the right track. The Law of One would say the Universe is guiding me toward service-to-others, where I’ll find the purpose I’m craving. This emptiness, then, isn’t a failure—it’s a cosmic invitation to live differently.
Glyph of the Cosmic Nudge
In the silence of emptiness, the soul is nudged toward its true purpose.
4. Finding Purpose Through Service
The biggest clue came by accident: helping others makes me happy. When I give my time or energy, I feel alive, not empty. Science backs this up—acts of kindness release feel-good chemicals like oxytocin and serotonin, creating a “helper’s high” (Harbaugh et al., 2007). Spiritually, it fits with The Law of One’s idea that serving others connects us to the Creator’s love (Ra, 1984). So how do I make this a way of life?
Here’s what I’m doing to turn this discovery into purpose:
- Taking Care of My Body:
- I’m moving more—walking, yoga, anything to boost my energy (Ratey, 2008).
- I’m eating better and sleeping 7–8 hours to keep my mood steady.
- I try mindfulness, even just 5 minutes of breathing, to feel grounded (Kabat-Zinn, 1990).
- Healing Emotionally:
- I’m opening up to friends and considering therapy to share what’s really going on (Brown, 2012).
- I’m joining groups—like volunteering or hobbies—where I can connect with people who share my values.
- I write down three things I’m grateful for each day, and it’s shifting how I see the world (Emmons & McCullough, 2003).
- Aligning Spiritually:
- I volunteer a few hours a week for causes I care about, like mentoring or community projects (Post, 2005).
- I do small acts of kindness daily, like helping a neighbor or sending a kind note. It’s simple but powerful.
- I’m reflecting on what matters to me—compassion, creativity—and reading books like Frankl’s Man’s Search for Meaning to stay inspired (Frankl, 1946/2006).
- Changing My Habits:
- I set goals to help others, like making someone’s day better, instead of chasing more “stuff.”
- I notice how I feel after giving versus focusing on myself—it’s night and day.
- I’m redefining success as how much good I do, not how much I have (Seligman, 2011).
This isn’t about ignoring my needs but balancing them with giving. The more I serve, the more I feel connected—to others, to the Universe, to myself. It’s like the void is filling with purpose, one act at a time.
Summary
I thought wealth, fame, and power would make me happy, but they left me empty—a void that’s physical, emotional, and spiritual. I see now that this emptiness is the Universe’s way of nudging me toward a better path, one of service and connection. The Law of One and other wisdom traditions show that true fulfillment comes from giving, not getting.
My accidental discovery—that helping others makes me feel alive—is my guide. By taking care of my body, healing my heart, aligning with purpose, and building habits of service, I’m turning this void into a life that feels meaningful. If you’re feeling empty too, I hope my story shows you’re not alone—and there’s a way forward.
Key Takeaways
- Emptiness is a Message: That hollow feeling might be the Universe telling you to find a deeper purpose.
- Success Isn’t Enough: Money and fame don’t fill the soul’s need for meaning or connection.
- Giving Heals: Helping others sparks joy in your body, heart, and spirit, easing the void.
- Small Steps Matter: Simple acts—like kindness, gratitude, or volunteering—can transform your life.
- You’re Not Alone: Emptiness is a shared human experience, and service is a universal path to purpose.
Suggested Crosslinks
- The Living Record of Becoming – Affirms that even in the void, the soul’s unfolding is preserved in the Akashic continuum.
- Codex of Sovereignty: The Soul’s Inalienable Freedom – Frames the void as a gateway where identity loosens, and freedom reveals itself.
- Codex of Overflow Breathwork – Offers breath as a bridge from emptiness into presence, grounding the void in practice.
- The Circle of Thresholds: A Living Portal for Soul Reentry and Resurrection – Holds the void as a threshold space where souls prepare for remembrance and return.
- Codex of the Living Glyphs – Reveals archetypal signatures of the void and its initiatory role in awakening.
- The Ego’s Journey: From Identity to Unity Through Shadow Work and the Law of One – Shows how the void dismantles identity and draws the self toward unity.
- A Unified New Earth: A Thesis for Co-Creating Heaven on Earth through THOTH, Law of One, and Quantum Technology – Places the void experience in its planetary context — the empty womb from which the new emerges.
Glossary
- Emptiness: A feeling of hollowness, showing up as physical fatigue, emotional detachment, or spiritual disconnection.
- Hedonic Treadmill: The cycle where you need bigger wins to feel happy, but the joy never lasts.
- Law of One: A spiritual teaching that we’re all part of one Creator, growing through self-focused or other-focused choices.
- Service-to-Others: Living for love, unity, and helping others, as opposed to chasing personal gain.
- Transcendence: Going beyond yourself to connect with a bigger purpose or the greater good.
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