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🌄The Quiet After the Awakening

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Gerald Alba Daquila

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When nothing dramatic is happening — and that’s exactly the point

This piece is part of a series exploring what happens after deep inner change — the quiet, often confusing phases where growth becomes integrated into daily life. These reflections are for those who are no longer in crisis or breakthrough, but learning how to live from a new inner ground, one small, human step at a time.

5–7 minutes

There are seasons of change that feel like earthquakes.

Your sleep shifts. Emotions surge. Old memories rise. Relationships feel unstable. Meaning rearranges itself overnight. You cry in grocery stores. You stare at the ceiling at 3 a.m. wondering who you are now.

That phase is intense. Charged. Disorienting. You can feel that something enormous is happening inside you, even if you don’t have words for it.

And then… it stops.

Not completely. Not in a dramatic “I’m healed” kind of way. But the emotional spikes soften. The revelations slow down. You start doing laundry again. Answering emails. Cooking dinner. Going back to work. Life looks ordinary from the outside.

Inside, though, something feels different.

Quieter.

And that quiet can be deeply confusing.

The Lull That Feels Like Loss

After a peak experience — emotional, psychological, or spiritual — many people expect one of two things:

Permanent elevation
or
Another breakthrough

Instead, they find themselves in a strange, muted in-between.

It can feel like:

  • Emptiness
  • Flatness
  • “Did I imagine all that?”
  • “Why do I feel nothing now?”
  • “Have I gone backwards?”

The intensity that once made everything feel meaningful is gone. The sense of urgency fades. Even the drive to “figure everything out” softens.

Without context, this phase can be misread as regression, depression, or disconnection.

But often, it is something much quieter and much more important:

Integration.

What Integration Actually Feels Like

Integration is not dramatic.

It does not come with fireworks, visions, or emotional catharsis. It feels more like your system slowly exhaling after holding its breath for a long time.

During the intense phase, your nervous system was activated — even if the experience felt meaningful or awakening. There was energy, movement, disruption, reorganization.

Integration is when your system says:

“Okay. Now let me absorb that.”

That absorption happens in stillness, repetition, and ordinary life.

You go back to the same kitchen, but you stand in it differently.
You have the same conversations, but something in you reacts less.
You face the same responsibilities, but with slightly more space inside.

Nothing looks dramatic. But your baseline is shifting.

Why the Quiet Can Feel Like Regression

Intensity is easy to recognize. Quiet is not.

When things were intense, you felt the change happening. There was evidence. Emotion. Movement. Release. Insight.

When integration begins, the change goes underground. It moves from the mind and emotions into the nervous system and behavior. That process is slower and less visible.

So the mind tries to make sense of the lack of intensity:

  • “I must have lost the connection.”
  • “Maybe it wasn’t real.”
  • “I should be doing more.”
  • “Why don’t I feel as alive?”

But aliveness does not only come from emotional peaks. Sometimes it comes from stability.

Sometimes the sign of growth is not that you feel more —
but that you are no longer overwhelmed by what you feel.

The Nervous System Is Catching Up

After a big internal shift, your system needs time to recalibrate.

Old identities may have loosened. Old fears may have surfaced and moved. Old coping strategies may no longer fit. That’s a lot for the body to process.

The lull is often the phase where your nervous system says:

“I don’t need to stay in high alert anymore.”

That can feel like:

  • Lower motivation
  • More need for rest
  • Less emotional drama
  • Less interest in proving or striving
  • A softer sense of self

To a culture that equates intensity with progress, this can look like stagnation. But in the body, it often means safety is returning.

And safety is what allows real change to stick.

Ordinary Life Is Where Change Becomes Real

There is a quiet disappointment some people feel during this phase:

“I thought things would be different. But I’m still here, doing the same things.”

But the point of deep change is not to escape ordinary life. It is to inhabit it differently.

The miracle is not that dishes disappear.

The miracle is that you wash them without the same inner pressure.
That you pause before reacting.
That you feel your feet on the floor more often.
That your thoughts are not the only voice in the room anymore.

This is less cinematic than awakening. But it is more livable.

You Are Not Falling Back — You Are Settling In

The lull after a peak is not a sign that you failed to “hold on” to something.

It is a sign that the experience is moving from a temporary state into a new baseline.

Peaks show you what is possible.
Integration teaches your system how to live there.

That takes time. Repetition. Bored days. Quiet evenings. Normal routines.

Nothing is wrong because nothing dramatic is happening.

Something is becoming natural.

If You’re in the Quiet Phase

You don’t need to force another breakthrough.

You don’t need to chase intensity to prove you’re still “on the path.”

You don’t need to panic because life feels ordinary again.

This may be the phase where the change is finally landing.

Let yourself be bored sometimes. Let yourself be simple. Let yourself move through small tasks without turning them into symbols.

The work now is not to transcend your life.

It is to be in it — with a little more space, a little more softness, and a little less fear than before.

That is not regression.

That is integration.

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This reflection is part of a series exploring the quiet phases of life after deep inner change — where growth becomes integrated into everyday living, one steady step at a time.

About the author

Gerry explores themes of change, emotional awareness, and inner coherence through reflective writing. His work is shaped by lived experience during times of transition and is offered as an invitation to pause, notice, and reflect.

If you’re curious about the broader personal and spiritual context behind these reflections, you can read a longer note here.

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